On the Phone

"Hey Sweetheart!"  Those are the first words that would be out of my mom's mouth as soon as she heard my voice on the other end of the line.  And those are the two words I want to hear, especially today.

Today is our first Mother's Day without Momma.  I feel like Sally, Janie and I have had too many sad and painful "firsts" the past couple  of years.  And  despite the number of them, they still just suck.  Because not matter how much you wish...you can't change things.  Or go back in time and reclaim a moment.

I miss Momma today for so many reason but most of all because I have Tudor-Beach.  I spent the morning holding her in my arms while Jay, Nana and Solon went out for breakfast.  I just looked into her pretty blue eyes and just wished with all my heart that Momma was here to see her as well. 

Happy Mother's Day to Momma and all the other one's I love so much:)