Wednesday, April 6, 2011

Ripple In The Force

My sisters mean the world to me. Nobody in my life outside of Jay can make me cry or laugh quicker than they can, and the reason why is because I love them all so incredibly much. It goes without saying that I am a very sensitive person, and I think my sisters would agree and say that is a huge understatement. Yesterday, there was a slight miscommunication via text amongst me, Sally & Janie, and I got really upset. I had tears flowing, and all day I was out of sorts. I can't rest emotionally for a moment if I think there is a hint of dischord amongst us. I spoke with Janie on the phone briefly yesterday evening and still didn't feel quite right. Then I went to sleep and had one of those dreams that is so real that it lingers with you for hours afterwards. My dad was sitting in a chair, and I was kneeling beside him. He told me that he was leaving, and I was crying telling him I loved him so much. I was crying so hard in my dream that I am convinced if I woke up I would have had actual tears running down my face. So, he left..and then my dream skipped foward to me, Sally & Janie standing in a store of some sorts. We were talking to a lady, and I think we were buying flowers. Anyway, there was a change in the air, and she said that is your Dad. She said he was at the glass door. At this point in my dream, I knew my dad was gone...and she told us that he had his face pressed against the glass and was looking at us three. There were two things my dad couldn't stand in his life. To see one of his girls cry, or us not getting along. He would say "You are too pretty to cry." And he would say "Be sweet to your sister(s)." I know my subconcious probably was playing out what I needed on some level, but I also know that my dad was talking to me. When I woke up this morning and finisehd with class, the first thing I did was write to Sally & Janie. I told them about my dream in a text and told them I loved them and was convinced Daddy was telling me in my dreams for all of us to be happy. I am very lucky to have all my sisters, and I know Daddy is watching us and making sure we are okay.

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